Throwing in the towel

sigh. sometimes i feel like throwing in the towel. I really do. I keep trying. But i keep failing. And i am frustrated. I just don't get it. How did i screw up something that was working so easily, without even knowing why ? Here i was thinking that it was going good between me and her, but now all the sudden shes flirting with another guy. Really? Curse of the first date ? How do i get from seriously attracted to me; to no attraction what-so-ever ? How did i fail here? First date was fantastic. We had a good time. Did she just decided suddenly that she like my more charismatic friend more and gave me the snuff ? I am angry. Not just so at her, but at myself. Am i really that shit ?